One Testimony

Five years ago, I was sitting at my kitchen table, doing what I've coined, The Bill a shuffle, which consists of picking out The Bills that were in risk of being disconnected. I felt anxious (like always when doing bills) and had a sick feeling in My Gut. I was tired of having these feelings...at that very moment I closed my eyes, prayed and entered into a powerful communion with God.
Mind you, I've not been of a  materialistic mindset, since I've been clean and sober, 9-29-99, a dark point in my life that I had gained every monetary thing and then some, only to lose it all and find myself feeling lonely and completely broken.
During my prayer, God reminded me how he rescued me then and assured me that ( no matter what) he always would. Then the scriptures I had read and heard preaced, so many times before popped inro my spiritual discussion. I thought how God always had his Arc Angles approach his children throughout The Bible, always saying, "do not fear" immediately The Fear of my utilities being disconnected vanished.
I remembered The Apostle Pauls writings, which stated, " I know what it's like to be in need and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in all circumstances is to remember, that I can do all things through him that gives me strength...cast your worries on the Lord and he will sustain you; because my Lord cares for me, loves me...yes a wretched, sinner like me, he cares for, forgiving me always, when I repent (ask).  Biblical Summary Phil: 4-12-13 Pet: 5-7 and Ps:55-22. From that moment on, I've never had a overwhelming feeling about my financial circumstances.
Have I had times of hardship? Yes, but by remaining faithful, I've not felt anxious about it. I've also found it's all about perspective. When I think I'm having a hard time, I think of the Children living on top of the Garbage dumps in The Philippines and the Children dying of starvation, lack of clean water, or  medical care...or the person in that's drawing there last breath in a hospital, or the Christian that's being slaughtered, mamed, or tortured, just for loving and believing in Jesus, right now, as I write this blog!
Then, my gratitude is the only overwhelming feeling I have. I continuously tell myself, I'm a work in progress and spiritual progress happens over time. Then my utility bills seem irrelevant, within The Big picture!
That's one of my testimonys about God's abundant provision and unwavering love, for a fool like me. How grateful am I?